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I saw her, then tears 

I started to cry. I was too overwhelmed to be surprised.

She slow danced inside me 

a sweet sweet memory

I’ll always be in love.

**

I saw her walking down the street

a girl sitting next to me drinking her tea

and talking with her friend has her name.

I leave.

**

When her belly was getting bigger

and the Baby started kicking

I was deeper than I ever dreamed

She was my altar 

but she wanted to be my wife.

**

Joy, sweet child of ours

so lovely I can’t believe (it). Our love 

walking playing laughing

in 1st grade now.

Don’t hate me because I am not your daddy. Dear,

I was your mother’s and

she mine

and..we were young and..

**

She was never nice 

and it never really mattered.

She thought I was good.

A Good Man, she said.

Later, she hated me. 

I would never grow up.

(She hates me. I’m no good.)

I never said I would.

**

I said, I love you most 

inside you inside you 

on my lips 

in every thrust of my hips

every cell humming

heart thump thump thumping

a scream in the darkness

we lost this we lost

this wet wet rawness.

**

Never never never 

can I get over it.

In Love With Her

“I say I’m in love with her. What does that mean? It means I review my future and my past in the light of this feeling. It is though I wrote in a foreign language that I am suddenly able to read. Wordlessly, she explains me to myself. Like a genius, she is ignorant of what she does.”

*This was from an excerpt from a book called The Passion, written by Jeanette Winterson

Me:  This quote is um, by Betty Smith, who is a American Author and a folk singer.

“Look at everything as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time. Then your time on earth will be filled with glory.”